Originally Posted by
Dreamer0 
How did you break the cycle? what was it like?
You can start by getting the help you need, and then stick with it. Your road is a very difficult one, but one that certainly deserves your attention, time and effort. The best treatment is a combination of medication and therapy, with many able to discontinue their meds over time.
Psychological dependence is described as believing that I need alcohol in order to function normally. You're deep into it, and now is the time to start digging your way out.