Hello, and welcome.
As the title of your post says, 'New'. Today is a new day and a day you can make a new start. That is a good place to start. Just don't drink today.
I can understand your problem. Alcohol wreaked havoc on my life. I won't go into the gory details. But let me say, I was, what I thought, was a hopeless drunk. If I make it through today without drinking, tomorrow I will have three years sober. And I was, as I said, a bad drunk. I don't even consider myself technicaly an alcoholic. I was a drunk.
When I finally quit, my life slowly got better and better.
I feel for you and wish you the best. You've found a great place for support and I hope you stick around and read and post as often as you like.