When this happens I try and play the tape through in my head to realize what would happen if I take that drink. Most likely I would end up right back where I was before I quit.....miserable, anxious, wanting to die. Luckily I don't get the thoughts of wanting to drink too much anymore because of how bad my last relapse was. I wouldn't wish that pain and suffering on anybody and for that, I'm grateful that I still remember that memory.