Originally Posted by
animalnurse9 
Yeah, I have 3 and they love me unconditionally. I need to do better by them, for sure.
You know animalnurse, that's what helped me get my first sober time.
I took my four large dogs for a walk in the woods behind our house every day
because I felt guilty that I just came home from work and started drinking and didn't have fun with them or take them for exercise.
At first, I could barely wheeze my way up and down the hill and had to stop
and rest and then I would feel bad obsessing about all the stupid stuff I had been doing because of drinking while I was standing there puffing feeling fat and old.
Dogs would play and wag their tails and run to check on me and I just kept going and each day focused a little less on me and my crap and just enjoyed
being in the forest and watching the dogs run.
After a month or so I could walk up the hill without stopping, dogs were
fitter and I didn't feel like a neglectful mommy. Everything improved.
Sober time kept growing and I decided to try Crossfit.
Dogs loved me sober or drinking, but I think they have tons more fun
with me now.
Also, the guilt and shame I felt at my stupid drunken actions
faded, and now I don't even think about them anymore--I'm no longer that person.
You are doing a great job. Keep trying and keep posting.
It will just click if you don't give up. Hugs to you and your puppies
(Mine are twelve years old and still puppies to me. . . )