been a bit. frustration
I cannot even have a conversation with ah anymore because either I get annoyed or he does. Why? Usually he gets annoyed because I dont just agree with what hes saying or I get annoyed because if we talk about addiction or if he talks about someone else it hypocritical hateful or he downplays his problem or blames someone else
I never thought I would be that person ....the one whos in a relationship where two people are going two separate ways and just tolerate eachother. Just dont get along. Love and resoect is gone yet they hang on.
Ok so no im not a saint but the reason our relationship is in such a rut IS because of his drinking. Because of his thinking . Yes hes told everyone under the sun including himself. Heck even in his outpatient program he downplays his part in our "fights" by saying its me and him when really....its just him. Drunk addicted him.
My day. Kids clean cook
His day. Drink belittle sleep.
Its kind of a no brainer why this "thing" we have isnt working.
Just tonight I was called a reta** .
Amazing!
Christmas cant come soon enough. Leaving after . Wish it were sooner!!