Thanks everyone for your thoughts. They echo what I already know. I don't want to spoil this holiday and it is just a romantic deluded view of alcohol that makes me think that it will be the icing on the cake. It is another 6 weeks or so away which will give me a little more time to strengthen my resolve. I really don't want to waste what I have managed to achieve so far. I guess I just needed a little reassurance from my SR family. Keep well everyone.