Hi Twofish, I haven't been on much this past week because I have company. I have been reminded this past week that it stops when I say so. I had to set some hard boundaries just to make it through.
Your kids are running you ragged, they own their bad behaviour and you don't have to tolerate it. You know that I know how hard it is, I went through this for years with my son. But it stopped when I said "enough".
My heart and prayers go out to you, and for them too. It is miserable to live like that. Maybe try to set some boundaries for you, not them, and enforce them. Start small and grow, but start today and do something to take good care of yourself because you deserve love and respect and if they refuse to give it, then let them be disrespectful somewhere else.
Hugs from one mama's heart to anothers.