First off, congrats on 35 days. That's a pretty big deal. Next, you have two different problems but they seem to interact. The first is depression, the other is PAWS/readjustment. The second one is not unique to you, we all go through it. I assume it's worse for you because it interacts with/exacerbates your depression. But rest assured- it's not just "crazy" or anything. The first 30 to 180 days of sobriety are a huge challenge to all of us who've quit. Your body and brain seem to go haywire as they adjust to a very different chemistry than they're used to.
I don't think meetings would be useful for me, and I guess I would probably feel like you do about hanging out with "damaged" people. On the other hand, you do it here all the time. What is different about SR than your meetings? You come across and interesting and personable here. Maybe you need a different kind of live social group.