TERRIFIED!! I'm so newly sober (this time)- straight up, I'm planning to bail at this point. My family has no idea that I've been in treatment... They have just NOW started calling about the holidays and I have yet to respond. I in NO WAY want them hearing all this treatment stuff, and then have to sit with them and this giant elephant in the room. So.. Oh my... I think I feel this flu... This HORRIBLE FLU... I feel it coming on! It's destined to "ruin" all of my holiday plans!!! Darn...
Yeah... That's right. I'm gonna lie. I'm gonna be a big fat liar! And I don't care not ONE bit. This time is for me right now. I'm doing this for me. Maybe that's selfish, but I can't worry about that. I have to stay safe. I'm not "there" yet. I don't have a burning desire to "come out" and I am in NO WAY ready to deal with the holidays at this stage. So Ima' gone lie thu mah teeth! Just sayin...