I don't get close to people. It scares me that the one person I have become really close to in life, the one I could completely be myself around is the one I have to cut off. The anonymity of forums lets me go through the paces of venting in a way that I can't in person, but it feels hollow in comparison to what we had. I'm afraid that this is over for good...or worse, that if it is, I'll never have that same connection to another human being. I've tried before, but other people tend to just fade in and out. I hope he'll do what it takes to get better without me, but if this doesn't work I don't have much hope.