Originally Posted by
leenamarie 
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Oh thank you Dee...I AM new here and not always sure where to post. Thanks so much for pointing me in the right direction!
Well...I'm embarrassed to say I've changed my number so many times over the last couple of months friends and family are getting fed up with me. THAT'S how "addicted" I was to this person along w/ the drugs and alcohol.
So for now, I think I can just keep the number blocked but I will NOT hesitate to change it if need be.
As far as the police go...without having to get too much into this young man's life...he's from the streets of Puerto Rico...which was basically lawless and taking the law into your own hands. He wouldn't give a flying you know what about a restraining order. I don't know if it would make him angrier...and a piece of paper isn't a shield. I know that might sound like a cop out but I do believe I'm in a safe place right now staying out of my home and with a friend and far enough away from him.
I've never had the courage to do this before...to block & delete him out of my life permanently. I think he's just panicking because he's lost control of me.
IF he finds a way to get up here to me unannounced...then yes...I will have to file a Restraining Order...and change my number. But for the moment...I'm confident I can handle this.
Thank you for your support.
I don't know...What I'm reading here is that the two of you are continuing to romance each other in ways that feel familiar. Your running monologue about "my abuser" is beginning to feel like reading a twisted romance novel.
Your continuing to refer to this man as "my abuser" grants him a rarefied position in your thoughts and, well, in your life. And in this thread. To the extent that you continue to engage him from a distance -- phone number blocked or otherwise -- you're endorsing and collaborating with him in his abuse.
It's time that you started doing things to take care of yourself that don't include monitoring and reporting on your abuser's whereabouts and behaviors. Like getting help with your alcoholism.