Silent,
So sorry these pesky dates have to come and remind us of some sad memories. You sound like you are doing better. With more time you will notice a big difference. MY son just broke his gf's heart after she had been there for him through everything when no one else was, and waited for him through rehab and sober living. The family is heart broken. She feels used and hurt as she should. Who knows why these things happen and yes they are so hurtful and painful but I believe God knows best and in time, someday, you will look back and have that answer. It is hard when there seems to be no good answers. Praying for healing and peace for you Silent.