You are doing well Erik. It's good that you recognize those thoughts now ( the ones of drinking again ) so you have time to plan and be ready. As you suggest, the motivation to stay sober merely based off a bad drinking experience can fade as we start to feel better. I'd highly recommend you start working on your plan more and more each day to keep bad things from happening. You mentioned you would potentially try to keep going to meetings even though everything may not click at first - that's a great idea to follow through on. Read a lot here about the other recovery methods that are available as well, many are self paced if you'd prefer that. The bottom line though is that eventually you will be tempted again, no matter how horrific your last drinking experience was. Be ready and don't forget there is always someone here too.