day 1 again
I totally cocked up last night.
It was my first shift off for ages n i was cooking and thought that I would be ok cooking with Wine but no no I wasn't.
I'm sick of alcohol I really am I'm sick of been an idiot I really don't know why I bother with anything.
I've been doing so well since coming on here with just one slip up but yet again I drank.
Why can't I learn why does it have to be such a hard life.
I start councilling next month for my depression and im going to speak to them.about my drinking.
I'm sorry I let u all down.
I'm going to try to pop on here even when I'm working as I think that's why I've failed.
Sorry guys I really am sorry I don't deserve u guys