I'm sorry SilentLove....I'm sorry your dreams were shattered. I think we all have those significant dates that remind us of events. The 3rd of every month is hard for me...it ticks away another month that my son is still lost in his addiction. And this time of year is incredibly difficult for so many. Please know I'm sending you kind thoughts....there has to a bigger plan for you...for him. Just be open to it when it arrives. xoxo