Oh how I wish I could go back in time and stop before I crossed the invisible line into alcoholism. Unfortunately, I don't exactly know when that was. Everything was ok - and then it wasn't. Just like that. And I have found through experience that there is no going back to the fun times.
It sucks. I hate it. But it is my truth. I try to lie to myself sometimes with thoughts of moderate drinking but it never works. Acceptance of my plight is key to my success and I surrendered. Kicking and screaming, but I did.
I hope it is not to late for you and you are taking action before the line. I sure wish I did.