I am in the wrong for posting what I did. I offended someone that I do care about I was just frustrated and lost last night and I wanted to write about it and get feed back. The feed back I got was great thank you guys. I know this is a heated subject and things can go anyway in an alcoholics life they just need to stay focused on the now and not what will happen later. I will work hard and get my life together if my wife wants to come along for the ride I would love that because she is the love of my life and I will never be able to get over her. She is the most incredible women alive imo and its very hard not to be able to talk to her. I hope one day she will talk.