One of the things that drives me crazy about AA is the way that people get told that they need to go out and drink some more--or that they need to go out and hit a real bottom.
They said the same things to me and I believed them.
I think my recovery really started when a small voice inside me said "**** you" to that. One day, I just decided that they were full of it and made a decision not to listen to just anyone.
That was an important step for me. I think it can be for you as well.