WR, I just went through your previous posts....On October 23 your wife called the police on you twice. You were completely drunk and spent time both in jail and the mental health unit of a hospital.
I am guessing that she has an order of Protection against you due to your erratic behavior. You've been sober about a month? that is a good start, but you have to let this go and stay sober for yourself. Hopefully if this sticks, you can rebuild a relationship with your child.
and BTW, I am the alcoholic, (sober about 31 months). I accept responsibility for all my actions, I do not blame others, friends, neighbors, the mailman.
I think your Xwife or STBXW deserves some space (and child support of course). I hope you feel better soon, it's good that you WANT to change... why don't you start by cleaning up what you can financially for her? working will help keep you focused and sober too.