Thanks Katel, I love your replies on the threads I have read.
Ya, this sucks!!! I'm hoping tomorrow is an up day for me. At the beginning it was usually half day good half day bad. Lately it is almost like 2 days bad and then 1 semi-good day.
I don't think there is much I can do but ride it out. Although I will go back to doctor sometime this month, probably after day 30 for a reassessment.
My AV whispered that drinking would wash it away, but that's not even an option as I played the tape and know it would negate the medication and put me right back in the situation where I am no longer myself. Even with the depression and PAWS, at least it is me feeling all this...