Originally Posted by
underoath 
I hate being babied though, I hate having things handed to me.. I like to fix my own problems I don't like help. truth be told I'm still a child I'm immature I need to grow up. I want to be hard and independent, mature and wise. Right now I'm just a weak little bitch. Rehab is for rich people or people who can't do it on their own.. or people in there against their will
I wish you could find some self-esteem. I was like you. Self-loathing and all that.
You are lucky to have support in your family. You may think you are a bitch but I am a nagging witch. As I say to most young people, please get well and finish your education. You are smart and can have a wonderful future. If I had my time over, I would have got well sooner and got myself an education, so important. But one step at a time. Get well first and good luck. You deserve it.