I made a total fool of myself during my 1 night relapse a few weeks ago also. I ended up crawling home in the street from my neighbors house, fell on my front step and was full of bruises and scratches. My shoulder STILL hurts. I took pictures of these injuries to remind me of what drinking does to me.
My sponsor told me to put down the 2x4 I was beating myself with and start fresh. You can do the same!!!