Petecrab, only one month in and i can tell that there is some clarity and stability underneath this emotional chaos. this chaos is a result of dropping a 20 year habit that kept me separate from my real emotions, and the fact that i don't know how to be a "sober me" yet.
honestly, i feel like an idiot because i drank all these years ignoring that it was aggravating my situation, probably warping the results of all the mental health and wellness things I did for myself. idiotic.
alcohol is stupid