Originally Posted by
MINUSERO 
It sounds like there is so much unresolved stuff going on for you.... why don't you go along to the next appt with the psychiatrist? Relationships get so screwed up.. I can relate to a lot of what you feel and how horrible it is!
The psych wont see me....AH wouldn't want me involved anyway (hard to maintain the lie then). I rang the psych when AH was threatening suicide and they said that at this stage they don't see family members. That its about him, what he admits to, what he reports etc.