30 days down, approx 900+ to go
I made it through my pre-planned New Orleans thanksgiving vacation sober. I did not feel a real compulsion to drink (although i thought about it a few times) but I did feel a sense of sadness that something that is fairly harmless and enjoyable to some people is not an option for me anymore. (but whatever- sadness is not new to me because I'm clinically depressed anyway.) today I return home and I feel defeated. the grind of my job, my life, and not having that quick fix for the tedium. this feeling defeated by life takes so much work to confront. and alcohol only stopped me from feeling it, but it was there all along.
but then i think, that's really stupid. counting on booze to deal with things you don't like is just stupid. get up, get moving, get on with it. life is a gift. don't turn your nose up at it.