Hobbit
Sounds like the time has come for you to let go eh? I was right where you are now when i quit vodka 8 months ago. 37 litres in 30 days relapse after 5 months sober. Deaths door.
This is not medical advice but what i did. B vitamins, re-hydration packs, milk thistle, water and juices, solid food gradually, multi vit and prayed my arse off....
Results were i got through and sobered up. I was a fool not to seek medical advice. Because i decided to 'go it alone' i suffered terribly and may have done lasting damage.
Please get medical help. Above all, believe all those that tell you it will kill you if you don't stop. But even more importantly, believe,trust and reach out to those that want to help.
And when they tell you that you are worth it, and that it gets better and better as a sober person believe them with you heart. They don't lie.
Gxx