Is celibacy necessary?
I have been celibate for years now. Sex is a trigger for me, so I have avoided it.
Recently, someone expressed sexual interest in me. I came close to having sex and close to using.
I did not enjoy sex much before I became an addict. I did enjoy it while in active addiction. I do not think it would be possible for me to have sex without narcotics involved--at least not possible to enjoy it.
I thought I had accepted that I would not be having sex, but this episode made me realize that it is something I would want. I know other people can handle it, but I do not think I could be sexually active in recovery.
Most people in recovery do not have this issue, I know. So who out there has dealt with something like this?