I read SR daily too and am very familiar with your posts. I was 29 years old walked out of rehab and drank within the first week. But I will never forget those 30 days. The people I met the there, the way I felt, the hope I had. I did get sober not to long (is a year or so too long) after that. Stayed sober for quite some time. Those sober years were the best days of my life. I hope you to can have the experience of sobriety Raider. I am now 55 the years have somehow flown by way to fast. I to am struggling with alcoholism again as I quit meetings 10 years ago and within a couple years was drinking again. Sorry for my long post but I just am so proud of you for taking that leap of faith and boarding that plane for rehab. I was reading along all the way. Wishing you all the best Raider.