I know will sound strange but......I have found a great AA group here. I've been to six or so meetings, met the regulars and just love them. I had planned on going today (before last night happened). I still was going to go today, I was in the car, went to get a coffee, drive around debating about it. I thought I'll just go tomorrow. Then It occurred to me that if I didn't go today, I would never go back and, again, I love those people. So I went to the meeting. When they called on me, I just fell to pieces crying and told them about last night. They could not have been more supportive. Lots of hugs and love in that room today. I will be going back to those meetings. As you guys said, maybe something will click. Thanks for the kind words.