I don't feel like I have an evil side but I do have the stupid side that will say anything and that can be just as bad. Last weekend I said something really stupid to a best friend and I don't even remember it. I woke up and decided this was so crazy to do things I don't even remember. I was so embarrassed. I just decided I cannot control this unless I just don't drink. I have not had a drink since Sunday, only day five....but I have to stick with this. I don't trust myself anymore and the only way to stop that other side of me from coming out is to just not drink. I haven't had to deal with the "why aren't you having a drink" issue with friends yet, but I know I'll have the answers when the time comes. I think I'm just going to say "I'm not drinking today" and at some point they will get my point. But right now my focus is on me and my health and I am not worrying about what my peers think or don't think of me. I need to overcome this. Good luck!