Originally Posted by
sholtokiwi 
I have to think about when I wake up tomorrow morning. If I don't drink any alcohol, I will wake up feeling proud of myself for staying sober, and refreshed, etc. If I have two tall boys, I might feel a little bad...not sure. If I drink so much that I get *********, I know I will wake up hating the world. But what if I buy two tall boys, just two, and don't drink any more than that...? I know that sometimes I can't stop myself from buying more after I start drinking, but sometimes I can. A few times last week, I only had 1 pint or 1 tall boy of beer. I was actually able to control myself... So what if I can control myself today...? What if I can drink those two tall boys and stop...?
I think you will still feel bad, anxious, and uneasy, because you now know you are an alcoholic and want to stay sober. It won't be fun tomorrow.
The first week is so hard. It does get easier - it truly does. But you have to grit your teeth and start stringing consecutive days together for that to happen.