Hi All..
Well I've reached one full week clean and aside from when I sat next to a BAR in restaurant on Day 5, the cravings today were the most difficult. I had a long, stressful day at work and had to stop at the (insane) grocery store with my kids tonight to pick up some stuff for Thanksgiving. It was a mad house and the liquor aisle was calling my name. Of course, I resisted, but I had to walk down the aisle to get a table cloth located at the very end. I looked at my most favorite wine, Pinot Grigio, with such longing it was sad. When will these cravings go away? It seems like they are getting worse with time.
I find myself saying "can I really do this?.. do I really NEED to do this"? When before, I was like.. "I HAVE NO CHOICE but to do this." I'm not worried. I know I need to. But these little voices in my head are driving me bananas. I feel like I have two people (devil/angel) inside my head arguing at all times. When does THAT go away???