Hi Owlie and welcome! I found what helps me now that I am a week in, is reading what I wrote about how I was feeling the last night I was drunk, and the first couple of days being sober. The last night drinking I talked to myself because I knew I would start feeling better, and think I could drink again. I have been reading that bit of text several times a day so I never forget where I will end up once I have even one drink, and then I read the next few days texts getting sober and I sooo remember why I don't pick up a drink.
I think we have all been quit for a bit of time and feeling good, and have a casual drink, and after osme time we are right back where we fought so hard to get away from.
Hang tight with us, I am only a week in, but this site has made a huge difference for me.