Thanks to everybody for your responses and kind words. I don't know how I got into this spot, but I see that I am just going to have to bare down and stay focused on my well-being and what is necessary to get there. Sometimes it is good to see that there are others who do care about you, especially when you can't see it yourself.
I have two lovely daughters and a wife who I love dearly and who love me. I have a good mind, if I care for it and many opportunities, if I work for them. Sometimes this recovery business isn't easy and the rewards seem elusive.