It takes time, Jazzfish. You may find that you can forgive yourself for one aspect and then lo and behold another issue pops up out of nowhere. Our drinking lives were messy. Sometimes recovery can be the same. Too many people expect everything to be neat and orderly when we get sober....nope. I think life is what we make it. I'm in counseling. I also have learned that it takes time for this addict/alcoholic's brain to be rewired to the extent that it can. I did a number due to the years of using. Things will work out as long as you don't drink. This too shall pass. Don't be afraid to experience the uncomfortable. I have learned to lean in to it
