Night Two
Lame cravings at night!!!! So frustrating!! I know it will pass. The desire to drink will not be there forever. I had a really good day today, even though I was tired. I want to have another really good day tomorrow. Plus I have a job interview. I think I need to keep busy till it's time for the kids and I to go to bed--read from here, do laundry, clean something, drink tea... If I just sit, the cravings are going to get worse. There is no alcohol in the house, and I'm not going to go get anything. Once again, I can't wait to go to sleep and for it to be morning. Even if I wake up at 1:00 am, I at least feel like it's the next day and I got past the hard part. Drinking alcohol isn't worth it. It's not worth it. It's not worth suffering the next day. It's not worth complete destruction of body, mind, spirit. Not worth it. Staying sober is. I hate the voice in my head that says, "I'll start tomorrow." To that, I say, "It's too late for that. I started yesterday, so SHUT UP!" Sigh. Here goes....