OK, I am really sorry everyone...got way too worked up over something I can't control even if it is happening. I am so sorry to have given the impression that I don't value each and everyone of the comments made here. While I am not in the excuse business, I (like many I am sure) work two jobs to pay the bills I racked up and unfortunately live with both of my actively drinking parents. So, at times I just lose all sense of decency and am truly apologetic and hope I have not hurt anyone. I did go to a therapist this evening and will continue to do so. Thank you all and I look forward to getting better. Whether or not he does.
Love
