Oh Lorelei, I'd just logged out - about to go to bed. But just read through your post, and want to add to the cheer squad for you. Every single person understands how you feel, and (I think, all) have been where you are now. I certainly have.
I certainly agree with everyone's reflections / suggestions - but LadyinBC really nailed it I reckon. Yep, feeling like we've 'failed' the sobriety 'test' - and life - is a real danger zone. I should know. Expressing our disappointment with ourselves is sort of to be expected - but it's so true that it can open us up to just sliding down further into the arms of 'Mother': Alcohol. A very nasty mother figure, indeed.
I'm rooting for you luv, just as much as I have to for myself.
xx
Vic
