Originally Posted by
lorelei 
For now i just feel terribly disappointed and fed up with myself. X
This is why the cycle continues. We actually set ourselves up to relapse. We plan them even though we think we don't. Do not let this disappointed or being fed up with yourself take over. Feeling this way means we are giving up and setting ourselves up for another relapse. Please don't do this. You are SO WORTH the battle.
Looking back I know I set myelf up for failure and I did it on purpose. I did it for many reasons. Fear of actually quitting, just not quite ready yet, feeling sorry for myelf and actually thinking that I'm not worthy of something better. Thinking that i don't deserve it. Thinking that I can't do it so why bother. But I did it. And you can to. It is there.
We all deserve a life of peace and contentment and to be happy.