Dreamcatcher, so sorry to hear the news. I can't imagine what you are going through. I hope it help just a little to know that there are prayers going up for you right now! I hope very very very soon, you will be able to find some peace with this situation. And, remember, you can't do everything at once, take your time, doing one thing at a time, one day at a time, or even on second at a time.
Peace to you!