***Natural Highs***
Hi everyone! I have been doing extremely well here recently. Since I stopped fighting and completely surrendered my life to my higher power (mine, GOD!) as well as, the program (AA) an amazing peace has came over me. Life has became so meaningful in such a short amount of time. I feel so much gratitude towards all of you here at SR, all of my friends in AA, and mostly to God for this revelation that has occured. The delusion that I am like other people has been smashed and I have fully conceded to my innermost self that I am completely powerless over any mind-altering substance, which I feel in heart has opened the doors for me to recover. My sponser and I have been talking everyday and I have started writing on my first step. Things are looking up but I keep reminding myself that everyday is not going to be easy and feel this good. My mom sent me an e-mail today that I wanted to share with all you lovely people . It's titled Natural Highs:
1. Falling in love
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts
3. A hot shower
4. No lines in the super market
5. A special glance
6. Getting mail
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside (my fav.)
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer
11. Chocolate milkshake
12. A bubble bath
13. Giggling. ( i am right now)
14. A good conversation
15. The beach
16. Finding a twenty dollar bill in your coat from last winter
17. laughing at yourself
18. Midnight phone calls the last for hours
19. Running through sprinklers
20. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all
21. Having someone tell you that your beautiful
22. Laughing at an inside joke
23. Friends!!!!! (thats a new one)
24. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you
25. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep
26. Your first kiss (either the first or with a new partner)
27. Making friends or spending time with old ones
28. Playing with a new puppy
29. Having someone play with yur hair
30. Sweet dreams
31. Hot chocolate
32. Road trips with friends
33. Swinging on swings
34. Making eye contact with a cute stranger
35. Making chocolate chip cookies
36. Holding hands with someone you care about
37. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change
38. Watching the expression on someones face when they open a much desired present from you
39. Watching the sunrise (after sleeping.. lol)
40. Getting out of bed in the morning and being grateful for another beautiful day (that's how I have been feeling- its wonderful)
41. Knowing that somebody misses you
42. Getting hugs from people that you care deeply about!
I hoped you all liked those, I know I do. I have deprived myself of the simple, beautiful things in life, such as these that mean something. I don't know about ya'll but I am ready to start living again. Sending my love and prayers to each and every one of you. With lots of love, Susan