Originally Posted by
cementhead 
I screwed up and drank
, wife has had it, kids look at me with disgust, where's my gun
Hey OP, don't beat yourself up. This disease is incredibly frustrating, bewildering and powerful. Tomorrow is another opportunity for recovery. Do you have a plan in place for recovery? Have you considered AA? We alkies can rarely do it by ourselves. It's great that you are here since this is a bastion of hope and support. Suicide is never the answer. There is a way out of this hell. You are not alone.