Originally Posted by
cementhead 
I see everything I have done and said, and it hurts my heart
you have a problem and you are hating yourself for it. Stop it! soo many people have the same problem. me, you, all of the thousands of posters on this site. we all have a problem, and there is no shame in having a problem. stop bullying yourself like this with your self loathing. get help. stop drinking.