today is just about the same, i took 2 walks and am going to do yoga, still sort of depressed with all my legal issues but theres nothing i can do about it. i find myself taking sometimes 3 showers a day nowadays, not because it helps my muscles but because once i break the littlest of sweat i feel i need to shower, which is totally opposite of when i was using i didnt care about hygiene very much. I just need to figure out how to deal with going to jail, although i probably will be granted bail there is no one to bail me out. i went to jail in july for a week and the only thing it teaches you is more criminality since the only way to survive in there is be one of them. you will get eaten alive if you show any weakness. i just hope that i can get granted R.O.R and be able to go about my life i really dont want to sit in jail for christmas but if i have to do it i have to do it. sometimes i wish i could just run away to another country but i know i would be miserable.
thanks for listening guys.