Thanks Ms. Pink, a cautionary tale. AH has already taken money from our kids. He denies it but when their gift money disappears I have a strong suspicion.
I am sitting McDonald's at lunch for the wi fi. I have been down for much of the morning. I only wish I had recorded AH last night while he was spewing his rage and food at the same time. It was so extremely ugly. And our poor son I am sure heard it all. I don't think I cando this anymore. Tolerate AH anymore thT is. some where i still love the cute you g guy i married. the one who was/is "super daddy" to our kids, but he has morphed into this bloated angry awful person. The last nails are finally being driven into the coffin of this relationship. I no longer have hope that he is ever going to get and stay sober. This time around he looks so much worse than he has ever done.
God, it was pathetic last night. He was drunkenly poking around the house to scrounge a dollar seventy in change to buy a forty ounce beer. To split with some guy in his car that looks like a defendant i would see in court. (I peeked). We are not normies because we no longer have a spare change jar. That is long gone. The spare change in my coat pocket was gone by that time. My husband, the thief and a liar. Spouting the bible on one hand and breaking most of the Ten Commandments on any given day.
I know this probably isn't the wisest thing but after watching him desperately scouring the house for change and rushing out to his car with some dude, I walked out there, to AHs side of the car. He rolled his window down and asked what was up. I told him that I just came out to look so that I could keep that picture in my head if I ever had the thought to relapse. Ugly ugly ugly.
I feel better writing. Sorry this is so long but I have a lot going on in my head. And a lot of planning to do.