I am angry because:
We have spent literally thousands of dollars on this dam@ addiction of his.
I feel stress/depression has prematurely aged me both physically and mentally
My kids have experienced hardship they should not know anythign about
I HATE BEING LIED TO and don't think addiction is an excuse. For my AH anyways, it is something he chooses and he chooses it over the well being of our family and he chooses to lie to me about it even though he knows I HATE BEING LIED TO MORE THAN I HATE HIM DRINKING!
I doubt I will ever trust another man again in my life and already feel anxiety over the men my daughter's will end up choosing in their lives.
That being said, I will not let the anger control me or my life. I have accepted these things as reality and am dealing with them best I know how. I would walk in a second if i could, but I have two children to think about and their well being is in my control and with God's help I will make decisions that I believe are in their best interests one day at a time.
Thank You.