Dreamcatcher - not only do you have my prayers but plenty of hugs too... I've been with my AH for 20 years & I can't even tell you how many times I wished that he would just go away (or worse...) But in the 'light of day' I can't imagine not having him around, being able to pick up the phone & call him whenever I want, even having his snoring mass next to me in bed!! I'm sure that during this initial period you'll have a rollercoaster of emotions... but when things settle down some, use this time to heal & grow... I'm praying for your AH as well, maybe this will be the bottom he needs to finally seek out & retain sobriety. I'm sure I speak for the lot of us... we are here whenever you need us!
Hugs
Christine