Originally Posted by
DoubleBarrel 
If you havent read up on Rational recovery, I strongly suggest that you check it out.
Aside from the AA bashing, the stuff on addiction ambivalence and AV i.e. the "beast" is interesting.
It explains the concept of a big plan. I will never drink again and I will never change my mind is doable in the bigger context of Rational Recovery, because YOU aren't the one with the doubts. Thats addictive voice that creeps in. THAT voice will ALWAYS want you to drink.
So perhaps you can negotiate with it. You WILL drink again. On your 200th birthday.
I have read up on Rational Recovery. I don't fully buy into it either.
I drink because I want to get drunk. I'm an alcoholic. There is no having a couple and stopping. I'd prefer to not be trapped in that cycle. So I won't drink again.
Living sober sucks (kinda at times). But living drunk sucks more.