Hi goingdownslo and welcome!
I loved loved loved loved loved loved loved loved drinking. I absolutely loved it. Did I say that I loved drinking and how much I loved it?
Well I did, until I realized what it was doing to me and to my life. The beginning pretty much sucked getting through the cravings and watching all my friends going out to play. All my drinking buds hanging out and I couldn't be there. Boo boo face to the max.
Then, a strange phenomenon happened. Once I made the necessary changes in my life and got through that initial part I found out something very interesting.
I didn't love drinking nearly as much as I thought it did. Almost 6 months in now and I've never been happier. What comes to mind now when I look back at all that fun that I thought that I was having is disgust over how much time I wasted succumbing to an addiction that served no purpose. I just thought it was fun.
You can feel this same way too believe it or not. 7 months ago I could have posted almost exactly what you did.
Life is far BETTER without it and much more fun (if you do it right).