I agree with jazzfish. I'm very early on in sobriety with 18 days and sometimes struggle with that part of me that enjoyed drinking (well, a huge part of me enjoyed it, let's be honest). For me, the last two months of my drinking were complete hell and I felt that my life had finally become unmanageable. Yes, I still enjoyed drinking; however, I was finally faced with certain consequences where I thought "Oh my goodness, I can NOT keep living like this." So, I basically thought ok- I'm going to see what it's like sober. I want to know what it's like to be completely sober and feel positive effects. As I've heard said before, give it some time sober- then see what you think. I heard a speaker at an AA meeting last night say "Give it a year. Try for one year and then if you want to go back to drinking, that's on you."